I write .. Because that’s the only thing I can do .. I write .. Hoping that one day I will be heard ..
You see , I’m an ordinary girl who doesn’t really stand out but always seeks attention , not to show off , but to speak out .. My mind is very loud and ideas about everything and everyone are always roaming around in my head .. They get so loud sometimes that I try to make them quiet by making up songs or counting numbers or following random patterns .
I’m someone who cares , cares about absolutely everything and especially about some situations out there that I want to be a part of .
I’m an ordinary girl who is not very pretty and not very ugly , who loves to experiment with her hair and loves wearing bright neon colors , just because .
I’m a girl who has syrian blood in her and doesn’t know when or how but she grew up loving her country even though she has never ever lived there . I’m a girl who to her The syrian situation has become all that’s been occupying her mind for the past almost 2 years now , along with other little stuff like studies ,university,thursdays and boys .. Which she has recently came to a realisation that it’s okay for these things not to be okay , but not for what’s going on in syria not to be okay ..
I’m an ordinary girl who makes up conversations and acts up scenes in her head of a meeting she had with a really important person discussing her country and she managed to speak out , deliver her message and eventually convince that “important person” to make a move .. And then everything will be okay , and she’ll be the hero who freed her country .. But that doesn’t really matter , the part where my country is free is the important part .
I’m an ordinary girl who doesn’t want to live for herself only , who really wishes she could help.. who”wishes she could run barefoot in every refugee camp and hold every child and cover their ears so they won’t have to hear the sound of bombing for the rest of their lives ” .. This sounds a little bit extreme for this ordinary girl who gets everything she asks for , and is spoiled by her parents .. But there is more to her than that .. There is a part of her who wants to be a mother to every kid who lost his , and a sister to every girl who lost hers and a giver to every person who lost everything .. And a comfort shoulder to every girl who is still waiting for her fiancee who went missing .
Yes I’m an ordinary girl and No I don’t stand out but I want to change someone’s life , I want to leave a mark in someone’s heart , I want to spread smiles ..and I want to be someone’s world .. Not just someone in this world .
I’m an ordinary syrian girl who wants to share love , because trust me .. Not the news .. That’s what being syrian is all about .
Deema.R
